20100504

2010.05.04 Tue.

Maybe I ought to do what I should/want to do, not what will make my stay to seem “enjoyed.”

I have wondered what I should do so that I, after this stay, can say with confidence that I will have enjoyed the stay. That has lead to caring how much I am "seen enjoying" the stay from the others’ points of view. I have been affected much by my imagination of how I am seen by others: if I am seen making the most of this stay.

This inevitably interferes with what I genuinely should/want to do. For sure, my own assessment of my stay must be more important than those of others. In conclusion, from now on, I try not to care how well I am seen doing, and concentrate on what I should/want to do.